Today was the first time I let myself cry. I didn't look back.. Maggie said don't even look in the rearview- so I didn't… It was more like running for my life. We had a good drive and an even better weekend. Kim has been more than hospitable and she is taking good care of us. Sam turned off our phones the day before we left, so Joaline and Shad kindly turned them back on for us…
Everyone showed up to help us pack up the truck and trailer. Jorge and my dad were elbow to elbow… got it knocked out in under an hour. Everyone brought great food!! Yum! I only got to smell it- I didn't have time to eat. They gave us a beautiful send off.
Sam on the other hand- didn't come home to say goodbye to his girls. He saw them for about 5 minutes earlier and left… after spending the entire day running around with Ms. Alicia. So the kids didn't get to say goodbye to him…
And maybe that makes it easier to leave. I don't know. For him maybe, but the girls still hold out for their dad- no matter what he does.
It's a bit sticky here and the rain has been nice… We are all piled in Jades room and the kids are happy as clams to do it. It wont be long before we will be on her last nerve… so I just hope we keep the house clean enough and the food on the table…
We are sad to leave our friends and family back in Arizona. But this became a matter of survival. As long as I put one foot in front of the other, every day- the opportunities are better here. I want to live to my potential finally and not be clouded by the emotion of past relationships. Sam is not the only love I leave behind…
Putting these kids first, will sadly be a change for me. I am embarrassed to say, I have put their father first all of these years… I guess I hoped their needs just fell into place in all of that. I hear they are some pretty great kids, but I want them to be even more of themselves by the end of this…
Please stay in touch. We are sad to travel so far- as good as it is for us- and we just miss our people!!
Muah!! A.
( PS, I am no longer in possession of the booty chair- its been willed to Mike… you'll have to go nap there. And someone PLEASE feed Trin!)
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