truths

At times ive been such a hypocrite I don’t know how I could look in the mirror- I asked for more honesty than I could personally give… and expected more commitment and growth than I had demonstrated- so being alone- for a looong time- its to correct that about myself.

All the ways that I’m fair and giving- they don’t undo the places I’m selfish and want more than my share.

My heart has been serving dual masters- but not me. And the truth is- its served both greed and lust… but self? Not self. And That man I love, he serves himself. He wasn’t while he was with me, but that he just claimed a life for himself- it was right. He will have to live with how he went about it- but he is right to let me go and find his own life.

There are truths I’ll never tell- the harm would be too great; but I will rewind myself to back when I served loyalty and faithfulness before anything else.

I have accountability to my inner circle. I always have. And ive shifted some relationships this past year in a huge effort toward my actions finally honoring my heart…

I’ve always called myself an open book. It will only be more true now. Ive made my apologies where I havent lived up to my standards with people… and I’m looking forward to this change.

On the other side, the love is going to be better… and Jill will have a new album out… and she will sing songs about renewal… and we’ll all be painting my new house to her wisdoms… the food will hit the spot and we will laugh into all hours of the morning, falling into beds of future...

loved.