warmly

you walked in that door and I fell back a few feet- I was struck. and I thought about you all week. I wanted to know you.

I have a lot of questions. and you lovingly have the answers.

and sometimes you look at me and you insist on the eye contact because you want to be sure im ok with what im hearing.

can I tell you something-

there is not a string of words or experiences you could hand me that I wont be able to fit inside myself and understand- the shame or regret- the euphoria of love or the quiet of reflection.

I stepped into the wander of you with 2 feet and this water its nice and warm.

I met a woman with a peace like yours in the fall. and I love her for her peace. still. you extend your peace to me with a warmth where you thoroughly enjoy my company and I know I keep looking at you like I don’t get it- because I don’t.

your fucking amazing. sexy. hilarious. hot. warm. full…

and you fill me.

im not sure why you think there is a thing you could say that would make me think youre a bad idea- except for if someone made you feel like who you are is a bad thing.

unacceptable.

you show up all this beauty. and every moment before today was the oil to your canvas. I don’t want to undo a single shade of you.

the care and respect you have given me already heals so many aches and when you talk about that trip in may and waiting to tell me why it makes you cry- its so damn hard to leave you to your solitude…

but I know that the study I mean to be of you will take time…

ive said a few times these months that I knew I would love again… only I didn’t think id let someone love me.

you my friend- I will let love me.

warmly- a.
4.18.09 5:51pm